HOW I DISCOVERED MY CORE VOCAL POWER
In 2007, I experienced something that changed my life forever. Laying alone in the Cancer Unit of a dark, musty hospital room, (yes, they thought I was dying of cancer) after three solid days of darkness, pain, and pure physical, emotional and spiritual hell, (we won’t go into detail, but I was very ill) I was in for something I had no idea would eventually empower me. If the intense suffering I had already endured wasn’t enough, following this, I nearly died from doctors making a major error during a simple endoscopy. I refused the surgery initially because I had a bad feeling about it, but when I became too weak to resist, I gave in. During the procedure, they nicked my bowel and had to open me to repair this, and also bruised my intestines in the process. I was left with 36 staples and an 8 inch scar along my stomach. I had weighed a mere 100 lbs. I had very little muscle function and had to learn how to walk, eat, breathe (build back my lung capacity) and pretty much do everything again, including sing. Again – this experience could be made into a movie, but I’m going to attempt to condense.
I was listening to Eckhart Tolle’s, “The Power of Now” and “New Earth” at the time and really wanting to just heal already so I could get back to teaching and earn a living. If there was something I needed to learn, I wanted to learn it. My mother had helped me for 1 week after leaving the hospital and had to return home. Doctors said 6-8 months to heal. I was alone.
One day I was sitting on my meditation couch. I sighed, wondering how I was going to get through this. Then, for whatever reason, I remembered that chakra guy on my wall with all the different vowel sounds along the spine. Up to this point, I never really taught resonating that often, as part of my system, but for some reason, the “ooo” popped out in my mind. I imagined an orange light in my belly, where it hurt, and I said “ooooooo”. Suddenly, the strangest sensation occurred! I instantly felt my little belly vibrate in such a way that it just WOKE UP! While I sang “ooooo”, the little cells in that area felt like they were just shaking like popcorn on a stove, exploding into something new! (I don’t really know of another way to describe it, but it was awesome!) I could feel my stagnant lower abdomen coming ALIVE AGAIN! Apparently, when we’re sick, our body responds even more dramatically to vibration than when we are well. I suddenly realized that I was not a lone and there was a world of cells in my body that were invested in working for me, and connected to my thoughts about them and also, the SOUND I made! So I did it again. “ooooo.” This time it wasn’t as dramatic, but I felt it. I felt the power of my VOICE within my body. Even though I was very tired, somehow it gave me energy, so I did more. I started experimenting with ascending vowels and sustained vowels, mostly “ooooo” and “oh” and my body just LOVED IT! It wasn’t long before I discovered “mmmmmmm” had a way of buzzing all the way up and down my spine. It was as if I was giving my organs an inner massage. (Through research, I later found out that they have scientiﬁcally proven that resonating does indeed massage the inner organs and releases a gas called nitric oxide, which is a natural anti- depressant! Months later, Dr. Oz himself stated this very thing on Oprah!) This self-healing journey through vocal resonating, amongst other methods which included visualization, meditation, listening to my body with love, and self-management soon became the foundation for my creation of C.O.R.E. Vocal Power® and even led to some of the resonating tracks found in my CORE VOCAL POWER DELUXE BUNDLE! Within 2 weeks of arriving home, I was teaching voice again! It only took three weeks for me to get on a bicycle and ride with my dog Febi! In less than six months I was holding vocal empowerment workshops and ﬁlming. Of course I wasn’t feeling 100%, but I knew I would be. I listened to my body and honored it. When I was tired, I rested. I remember there were times I was teaching and my staples were still in my stomach and poking out of my belly and it hurt! I would laugh and go “ooooo” either out loud or silently in my mind, and send that area of my body a healing. I kept thinking optimistically: “If some woman with breast cancer in The Secret laughed her cancer away, I don’t see why I can’t heal a few staples and bruised intestines.” The universe seemed to send the right kind of helpers while things were still realigning, shifting and healing.
I share my story, because it taught me something that can beneﬁt everyone. Before my experience, I did not know how to handle my “inner world.” I was walking around like a wounded child in an adult’s body. When I started to learn about the chakras and how they are just as real as my ﬁngers typing this article, I was able to ﬁnd a way to heal myself, by coming to terms with what I felt inside.